In the aftermath

I have had some time stew and sulk over my news yesterday. Today, I have some perspective. This time I can do things a bit differently (in fact, this afternoon I was wondering if I would even need pre-assessment since I've gone through it before. I probably will, but I'll check anyway) Last time, the radiation gave me really bad sickness and nausea, and the anti-sickness they gave me did not work. I suffered with it all day, till I realised in the evening that I shouldn't have to and asked for stronger anti-sickness medication.

Also, you can have this treatment done Thursday to Monday, or Monday to Thursday. Last year I did it Thursday to Monday, but I'm not sure I picked that...I think that was based on scheduling...I really don't remember! While Thursday to Monday is better for anyone who wants to visit but could only do it on a weekend. However, neither the consultant nor the specialist nurse are around at the weekend, so I think Monday to Thursday would be a better idea.

Last time, the DVD player didn't work, so I'm hoping they've fixed it now. Or got a new one. I found a very intriguing DVD in a cupboard in the room, it was a film starring Rob Lowe and Neil Patrick Harris, and I want to watch it!

There's a few more things I could list that I would want to do differently, but I think you get the idea! I'm still not happy that I have to go through with it (does anybody jump for joy at cancer treatment?) It's just not the big, unknown...monster that it was last time. Also, I know that they think this is the best course of action, and they're doing it because they don't want to put me through surgery or external radiotherapy. So thinking of it that way makes it a bit easier to come to terms with it. I can't escape this, but I can try to make things a bit easier for myself.